So I´m just saying it : I have a problem with getting sh!t done.
Especially lately. The new school year had arrived and had hit me like a train. I´m mostly buried in assignments and worries about my Youtube. So I´ve simply being rejecting my blog, and I´m very sorry for doing that. Even thought I don´t expect anyone to care, because my blog isn´t small. It´s almost non-existent. But I´m writing this anyways, just to keep you non-existing readers up.
My Youtube and my personal life have been worrying me alot recently. I guess none of you knew, but I´m suffering from BPD, a personality disorder, which makes me feel scared of being rejected. This has been a problem for me, because my relationship has been suffering from it. Also it stresses me out when I´m in school.
Fortunately, I did not recieve any hate on Youtube yet, which honestly suprises me a lot. But things have been going well with it, even though I put a lot of pressure on myself, to upload my videos on time. And I´m running out of time,ideas or motivation for periods, which makes it even more difficult. I´m not complaining about anything really. I just wanted you guys to know that I haven´t been neglecting my blog because of lazyness. I don´t think I ever postet anything very personal related like this on my blog, so bare with me if you´re not into my life updates.
Well- I have gotten a piercing for my 16th birthday(btw I´m 16 yaay). It´s an Anti Tragus and I´ve been loving it a lot.
My obsession on journalism have flamed up again, after watching the reacent episode of AWKWARD - one of my favourite shows. I guess to not become rejected by College, just like Jenna in the series, I have to really start with getting my crap done and learning things I don´t want to know and which will probly be nonsense in my memory. Maths.
Also, the fifth season of Misfits is now legally watchable on the internet, which made my heart jump. I already watched half of it, and I´m really looking forward to go on with that.
At the moment, I am reading "50 Shades Of Grey", and to be honest, so far i´ve been really liking it. They could have skipped some scenes, because I´m more into the story than the dirty details. I think it´s interesting to observe the mood swings of Mr. Grey and to find out the reasons for his sick need to control and how it´s slowly slipping away because of shy Anastasia. However, most of my friends have been reading it lately. I´m two thirds trough it.
I hope you didn´t mind me writing over my life instead of fashion or beauty related things for once. Thank you all for reading and/or caring.